last week’s poems 03
oh them, in the corner? they’re working on getting god momentum
old friend do what you gotta do
go get that bread, go get that head
do what you gotta do
to make some time
to make some art
go get that bread, go get that head
what ever you need to do
to help you start
these poems are for the people who have drowned in really hard things but come up from the fucking water kicking
the ones with a smile on even when it has no right being there
the ones with smiles that are earnt
met her on the west coast
should’ve taken her east
she found me on the boardwalk
selling poems
a dollar a piece
should’ve taken her
to see my graffiti on the streets
in n.y.c.
because my poems
here
they didn’t breathe
but over on the east coast
they came alive
on the walls of bars
and little dives
she only knew my poems on the west coast
man i wish i could’ve shown her the east
texts should be lit(erature)
don’t text me unless it’s poetic baby
don’t mail me unless it’s a painting that’s a little hazy
don’t send me anything
unless it’s literature that can drive me
absolutely fucking crazy
corporate slut
you stay so organized
and it gets you off
you do what the boss tells you
more than just 9-5
you sleep restless
on your company’s schedule
they wake you up
but never please you
but still you stay
and they think they know you
you say thanks for the money
put in the bank and let it go
but you got a secret little turn on
and you can’t let it show
a secret kink
only you know
sometimes when you get a minute alone
you fuck yourself by writing some poetry
and writing some scripts
that are actually amazing
that are actually it
but you can’t let em show
because you are a corporate slut
fucking on their schedule
so open another email
go to another meeting
but they’ll never know
you got a secret little kink
that you’ll never let show
but sometimes you get a minute alone
and maybe one day
you’ll quit
and you’ll let the world know
you corporate slut
i love you so
not this time
this time
im going to keep it
going for
a little
while
its time for some consistency
even if it doesn’t rhyme
all the time
i had to help my parents learn a culture i didn’t know
before i could focus on becoming my own
and every time i saw her
she got
a
little
more
beautiful
till it started
hurting
it was just a pang at first
when i saw her at a party
but i saw her at a cafe the next day
and it made my chest cave
and then i saw her out in town
another time
and it broke me down
saw her at the park
on a blanket with a book
and for some reason
that messed me up good
should’ve told her what i thought
because i saw her the next time on a patio
around dinner time
with a man
who kinda had my look
and i knew he was in for good
because every time i saw her
she got a little more beautiful
till it just hurt for good
the only love that can be bought
a man’s last 80 bucks
lost his job
lost his wife
his car broke down
and he’s stuck in town
but he’s got 80 bucks
and he wants to see
how long he can make it last
at a bar
but then he sees that everyone’s broke
and the beers are 5 bucks a pop
there are four people at the bar so he rings the bell
and next minute there’s four drinks at a bar and they’re living well
and then he buys another round
and another round
and
that’s the smart thing to do with 80 bucks
argue if you want but a good night at a bar can cure a man’s woes
and make him
a rich man
talking his sorrows
and figuring them out
with a few drunks
who love him no doubt
because the only love that can be bought
is the love for a man who just bought the bar a round of drinks
so that’s what you should do with your last 80 bucks
she told me that she loved tragedies
and so did i
she told me at the end
of us
“at least it would provide some poems”
and that was the real tragedy
the poems it provided were shit
and i realized some tragedies
just weren’t it
would have rather had her and i
living in a studio on island time
writing some rhymes
and fading into a sunset
as the credits rolled by
she told me she loved tragedies
but i wasn’t so sure anymore
maybe a happy ending just this one time
might’ve been right
you can’t come around here
with that energy
we wont even see you
we’re so locked in
you can’t come around here
with that energy
it won’t help anything
just kills people’s dreams
you can’t come around here
with that energy
we won’t even hear you
we’re so locked in
friends with everyone
close with no one
vulnerable
but only on the surface
immune system weak
like my support system
full of hopes and dreams
but nothing tangible
love life but
i’m not living much
mainly in my room
writing poems
and making plans for a trip or two
that never happen
wonder if it
would’ve been different
if you were still
around
but it probably wouldn’t
would’ve just been
me
dragging us down
but sometimes up
and i live for that
idea
that sometimes
i drag us up
got to get a good buzz on for no fucking reason sometimes
poor boy sitting there
writing his exegisis
in his dull journal
lines are so neat
his words all make sense
to his guilty soul
his own pen
damning him in
no freedom no creativity
just some words
and some stories
written by some dude
hundreds of years old
poor boy
sitting there
reading an old book
30 times through
that’s keeping him tied down
to some very old rules
how the hell are you
even meant to move
how is your pen meant to groove
poor old boy reading that old book
and finding nothing new
could be making waves with a colorful journal
and sharing your individuality with
those around you
poor old boy
that used to be me
in a coffee shop corner
hiding my sins
believe in your own world
things i’ve had to do to get closer to
and maybe become
the artist i’ve always wanted to be
the artist that i’ve got hiding inside of me:
get physically healthy
adapt to multiple new cultures
play the capitalist game
get emotionally healthy
figure out my message
learn about who i’m writing for
get consistent
get fast
stay prolific
its taken some time
but i’m almost there
i’ve almost arrived
i wish someone would’ve saved that kid
they saw him reading the old book
at all hours
digging in
he had been so happy
until they introduced
to him
the concept of sin
and along with that came
guilt and shame
and depression
in his now twisted brain
i wish someone would’ve saved that kid
they saw him reading the old book
at all hours
digging in
money?
you’ll never make a dime as a writer they said
but it confused me because the world was going to end
and they were still thinking about money
money?
when we could be writing poems
for our friends and family
and having a laugh and keep getting on by
and writing some scripts that change people’s lives
before it all ended too soon always
anyway, i started making a lot of money with my writing
and they were still thinking about money.
money?
fuck the white noise
of your overthinking brain
let loose
be yourself again
that boy was always locally famous, never more
deep down you want to be known
deep down you want to be famous
why is it so deep down
you can’t let it be known
and just keep living so aimless
deep down you want to be known
deep down you want to be famous
dear young artist,
my words aren’t here for you just to read
i want you to make things
same as me
because that’s how we save our people
you and i,
by making things
that slowly remove the veil from other’s eyes
love is always easier in the summer
but, you and i in the winter, was something to see
a secret that poets know
writing poems every day
can make you a better lover
not just to your partner
but to everyone you encounter
poetry (the best head)
the poems
come
slow
at first
but
then
they start to
come
faster and faster
and harder and harder
and then they
just start absolutely fucking you
now they stay for days on end filling your head and releasing from you in the end
with words and words and lines of text oh yeah baby harder and faster they come
oooh yeah baby you always knew poetry was the best head and you’d keep fucking till you were dead
too much of good thing
too little of a bad thing
the only time i was going to crash my car was when i was writing poems on my phone
it was never about people liking your poems, youngblood
it was about you liking them
and feeling them
and making them more true
until your own poems could actually hurt you
and now you feel alive again
more in touch
and more yourself
and now, youngblood, some people like your poems